Reading: Psalm 130
1 Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord!
2 O Lord, hear my voice!
Let your ears be attentive
to the voice of my pleas for mercy!
3 If you, O Lord, should mark iniquities,
O Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness,
that you may be feared.
5 I wait for the Lord, my soul waits,
and in his word I hope;
6 my soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen for the morning,
more than watchmen for the morning.
7 O Israel, hope in the Lord!
For with the Lord there is steadfast love,
and with him is plentiful redemption.
8 And he will redeem Israel
from all his iniquities.
I have been feeling like I have been in a dry season for a long time now. At times I wonder if my voice breaks through into heaven. Sometimes I just want to break out and shout.
Verse 3 and 4 is so encouraging because the truth is exactly that. How could I possibly stand before a sinless God? I can't defend myself at all before Him. But His forgiveness is great. But isn't it interesting that it is because of His forgiveness we fear Him? I think it's very interesting how it was written.
Yet there is a longing. My soul waits and I hope in His word. My soul waits and hopes for the day that I am used by God and I can see the fruit of it all. I wait to be delivered from people's expectations of me based on their ideas and views. I just want to be sold out for my Maker.
Redeem me oh LORD because I am in need of redemption. Your death and resurrection was not in vain. I need You in every way possible. Restore my heart. Restore it to the point that every heart beat will beat to the rhythm of your footsteps. I want to follow You, and You alone. I confess that I started to care about people's thoughts of me again. Restore me to how I was before only thinking about You--moving at the sound of Your voice, not afraid to take risks. Overflow in and through me. Help me be bold to share the truth of You. Jesus, guide me in this relationship of ours so when the final hour does come, You will see me and say, "Well done, good and faithful servant." In Jesus' name I pray Amen